– Tuesday, September 1, 2015 5:47 AM
The first day of a new month and I’ve added something new!
Last week someone else contacted me and told me about the product Plexus to heal the gut which in turn will help the Lyme Disease symptoms. This is the fourth person to tell me it helps Lyme Disease. But this time it came through a referral from a Great Banquet Community Lay Director… So, now I’m really paying attention God! Is this something I should try?? Right now I seem to be improving a bit more since I switched protocols but I am kind of stuck at a plateau. I haven’t wanted to get wrapped up in another network marketing product… but I think this one may be worth a shot. The testimonials are amazing and the other bonus is that even if I doesn’t help the Lyme Disease it could help me lose the extra 25 pounds I’m carrying around. 🙂 So, I think I will try. It could be a win on some level! And if not they say they will give me my money back!
So I took my first dose yesterday of the TriPlex – the slim pink drink, the ProBio5 (1) and the bio cleanse (1). I know my body well enough that I knew I couldn’t take it before bed because by morning I might feel like I was dying from the die off reaction so I took it at about 2:30p. By 6p I was starting to feel worse with the icky flulike symptoms so at 8:30p I got in the sauna for 30 minutes which really helped then I went to bed. This morning I decided to take it all first thing in the morning while I’m in the sauna so I have plenty of time to drink water and detox today. I’m already feeling worse and icky while I sit here after drinking it. Well, it is a good sign that it is doing something! I just hope my body adjusts quickly and maybe shows improvement soon. 🙂
So, this is the beginning of my Plexus journey! I’ve improved so much using essential oils but I’m stuck on a plateau and am also stuck with 25 pounds I’ve been trying to lose for over 3 years that can’t seem to lose because of the Lyme disease and my limited ability to do much exercise at all. It would be wonderful if this was the missing puzzle piece that could tip the scales for my immune system and send me into symptom free remission. I have high hopes but don’t expect anything because I have tried SO many things out there that had amazing promises and results for others, but not for me.
My pain level in general when I’m not moving is about a 6 but certain things make the pain go to a 10. Like bending my right knee (impossible), bending my toes or wrists or stretching some of my fingers. Walking makes my feet hurt worse about an 8 and being touched or squeezed can make the pain go to an 8. 8 for me is really bad but not so bad that I become totally unable to function.
So… I’m interested to see how Plexus can help a tough chronic case of Lyme disease!
– Wednesday, September 2, 2015 7:41 AM
Today I’m exhausted because I only got about 5 hours of sleep and two of my kiddos woke me up last night. I was only slightly icky today and it got slightly worse after I did the triplex this morning. So now I’m sweating it out in the sauna. I am still taking only one each of the bio cleanse and probio5 and I’m doing it in the morning instead of at night so that it doesn’t overload my body with toxins while I sleep.
I’m not exercising because my body is so limited. Sometimes I get my jumping on my trampoline in for a few minutes or take a short bike ride with my kids. But overall exercising is minimal and tough for me.
– Wednesday, September 2, 2015 5:15 PM
Today has not been good. Lack of sleep is hitting me like a ton of bricks! I can’t really think and I’m in a daze. I keep having to lay down. I can’t seem to get anything done!! It stinks!! Oh I hope I can get to bed early and sleep all night! I REALLY need a productive day!
– Thursday, September 3, 2015 5:54 AM
So I got 8 hours of sleep last night but feel like 12 would have been better! I’m still tired and I’m stiff and weak this morning. Hoping I can wake up and feel good enough to be really efficient and productive today. I really need a good work day! I need to get caught up and feel less pressure… the stress is bugging me. Moving my office has really slowed me down because I’m not completely settled yet but I’m hoping that I can get settled tomorrow. And hopefully I can have a really productive day today.
Walking is hell today! Every step is excruciating, especially in my left foot. Wow! It is awful! I’m putting my heel that pain inserts in to see if that helps because my feet are crazy bad today!
– Friday, September 4, 2015 5:42 AM
I had a very productive day yesterday! 🙂 and by the end of the day my feet were manageable. Today they are decent so I’m not limping terribly like I was yesterday. I think the inserts helped. Maybe my feet had just gotten crazy tight on top of the Lyme pain 🙁
I bumped up to two doses of the probio5 and bio cleanse. Today I’m going to increase the bio cleanse to the full amount. So my plan is to take 1 slim, 1 probio5 and 2 bio cleanse in the morning. Then at night I will do 1 probio5 and 2 bio cleanse before I go to bed.
I only got 6 hours of sleep last night so I’m pretty tired this morning. Hopefully I can get more sleep tonight since tomorrow is Saturday!!
Today my plan is to continue catching up on everything I can! Yesterday I applied quite a few oils to my feet to help keep me alert and motivated plus help my feet feel better. I think I used wintergreen, peppermint, wild orange, joyful blend, focus blend, Rosemary, massage blend and maybe others.
I think I will do that again today because I really need to get back on top of things! But my big project for today is to move the rest of my office!! I can do this! I can go through all the junk! I can climb the stairs a bunch of times today!! Yes I can!
Boy how I wish the stairs were easier for me. First thing in the morning they are killer! Trying to get up stairs to the sauna is really hard!! Some days they are hard the entire day… Other days they get easier later in the day. I sure hope today turns into an easier day!
– Tuesday, September 8, 2015 5:57 AM
I made it through Friday with a pretty productive day. I ended up going through some of the stuff in my old office and ran across a big file tub of medical records from when I got diagnosed with Lyme Disease and all the Doctor visits and the IV antibiotics and being in the hospital and then seeing the dates on some of the records from 12 years ago. That was tough!! Going through all of this for so long and it STILL isn’t over! It totally sucks that I have spent so long fighting this and it is really sad how much I have lost out on because of it! So that was a rough day! But then that night I got a text from a friend that I have been helping and she had gotten through the day without having a seizure. That was huge!!! And it was because I had reached out to help her and given her some natural options so she could use natural healthcare to help herself. I realized that if I had not walked this horrible path I would not be doing what I do now. I also wouldn’t be able to say I truly understand Having issues with my body I can’t control. I wouldn’t have a story people could relate to. It is bittersweet…. God is using the hell I have walked through to find a way to help others! I’m glad I have a purpose but I sure wish I could’ve walked a nicer path to get there!
Still doing the TriPlex and I’m up to the full doses. This weekend I had lots of cravings. It was terrible! I hope the rest of this week is better!
– Sunday, September 13, 2015 3:44 PM
I’ve been so busy at the World Wide Convention for the essential oils I use that I haven’t been able to write. Lots of walking and going non stop has been intense! But I have survived! Some of the day’s walking wasn’t so bad and others my legs and feet hurt so bad I struggled to walk at a decent speed but I kept moving! 😉
On the subject of Plexus I can’t really tell any difference at all. I don’t really feel like I have more energy or that it is helping my joints/muscles. It has definitely not helped my cravings. I think I have eaten more and had worse cravings since I have started. :-/ It may be helping my digestion but I don’t really know. I’m going to the bathroom a lot probably because of the extra magnesium in the bio cleanse. So, as of right now I can’t say anything good is happening for me. When I get home I’m going to try hard to balance out my diet again and work on some self discipline with eating the right things with better portions. I have felt a little crazy because I’ve been so hungry eating so much! Kind of disappointing.
– Sunday, September 13, 2015 6:33 PM
I have challenged my team to read The Slight Edge this month so I’ve been reading it again too. I really want to focus on the little things that make me feel better mind, body and spirit on a daily basis. I’m not going to beat myself up for the days I don’t get all my stuff done done but I am going to keep trying… Everyday I move in a good direction adds up! It is hard not to just give up and stop moving forward. I’m pretty good overall in doing the little things but I know I can do better! It will make a difference even if I don’t see it right away! Even down to doing something creative each day is important!!
– Monday, September 14, 2015 5:38 PM
This morning when I woke up I was pretty exhausted and sleepy but I got the boys off to school and work. I got a shower and went to the store for a couple of things. I got a few loads of laundry folded and ate lunch. Then I crashed out for the rest of the day. My little ones watching tv and getting up to take care of their needs and then back to bed to lay down. I’m hoping that I recover quickly and have the energy and brain power to get back to life quickly. I keep running out of Adren-All because it is expensive but now I’m committing to doing my best to take it everyday until I’m symptom free. Pushing through pain everyday is too hard on my adrenal glands. I must support them through this journey or I can’t keep going! So I ordered more and went ahead and got the adrena-vive too so that I can give them an extra boost this month so I can get back on my feet quickly! I have a lot going on and really need to have energy AND brain power to think and do. I should get them tomorrow… I sure wish I had them today!! I’m using my Vitality Supplement Pack to support me along with all my oils too so I’m doing better than I could be! 😉 But I need to support my adrenals extra for the duration! Maybe if I can fully support them without a break my body will have a better chance to get over the hump and get symptom free.
At this point I’m not sure what the Plexus is doing for me. :-/ But I’m still going with it each day. I’ve heard some great testimonials about Plexus and relief of Lyme Symptoms… But 14 days in and I don’t think I can tell a difference. I am definitely not getting help with energy or cravings or pain. Maybe what is going on in my body is too complex for it. I will just continue with my oils and support my adrenals. I’m thinking of adding in the HCL I did a couple years ago next month if I can find the money to do it. It helps quite a bit back when I did it before but it is expensive and no fun taking lots of pills. :-/
I’m also thinking of adding in the control powder that is made from spinach that helps control cravings… If I support my adrenals and help the cravings I could probably lose weight. The metabolic blend of oils is helping me not gain weight so that is a plus!!
– Tuesday, September 15, 2015 5:17 AM
I woke up minutes before my alarm this morning which was a good thing. 😉 but the pain and muscle weakness level is really disappointing. Climbing the stairs to get to the sauna was really hard this morning and I had to do it twice because I needed to turn it on so it could heat up some while I packed lunches.
I really want to feel better! I know it has only been a couple of weeks but I was hoping to be able to tell a difference in something… anything! I just wanted some positive feedback for the amount of money I spent. I have a couple more weeks left so hopefully something will change. But I’m already losing hope and feeling really discouraged. :-/ I don’t want to do the HCL but I’m starting to think that it could be a good thing to try again. I know that getting the gut right is super important for the immune system. I’ve come so far using the oils now maybe if I go back to the stomach HCL it will make a real difference again. Maybe the Plexus isn’t a solution… maybe it was just supposed to bring my attention back to my gut and think outside the box.
I have already been doing the salt flush once a week and I think that is keeping my whole digestive system on the right track to healing.
Money is crazy tight right now because of traveling out to Utah and having to pay for babysitters, food and travel. Oh how I wish I had more money to pay for all the treatments/supplements that I need on a daily basis so I didn’t have to pick and choose what I was going to focus on. I need to use the colloidal silver everyday because it is free and I make my own… but I can’t seem to keep making it and using it because that requires extra effort I don’t seem to have in me. Oh the frustrations of this life!
– Tuesday, September 15, 2015 6:36 AM
Oh the pain today! Feet, legs, knee, hips, spine, arms, hands and neck. Oh I just want to not move. Spending the day in bed sounds best but will it help? Do I push through? Today is a work day for me and I don’t know if I have it in me! :-/ Maybe it will get better in an hour or two. Maybe I’ll be able to accomplish something today! But at this point I don’t even know what to try and do because my brain is distracted by the pain. Oh oh oh! I need to get back to a functional level fast! I’m going to go put my oils on now… Lots of focus and soothing blend and some joyful blend too and whatever else I feel I need! I can do this!
– Tuesday, September 15, 2015 7:12 AM
Oh this is a tough one. Really struggling this morning. No food in the house. No energy to go get it. Not really enough money to buy any either. The kitchen is a mess. I don’t feel up to cleaning it.
So thankful I made it through the convention! Even when I was having a bad day I was able to make it happen because all I had to do was show up. I didn’t have to make it happen… just needed to be there. Well, I’m paying for pushing my body now… and I can’t just show up, I have to make things happen. I need to have a brain so I can make meal plans and grocery lists and balance my budget and do laundry and answer emails and get work done and return phone calls… I really need to push through and get some stuff done today… but my “push through button” seems to be broken. :-/ I would ask for help but honestly I don’t want to be around people either. I just want to be alone and feel better.
– Tuesday, September 15, 2015 8:41 PM
Today I compromised and got some work done but I did it while laying in bed. I worked on my laptop, talked on the phone and texted while in bed. Then I took a nap too. I’m finally starting to feel a bit more functional. I’m really hoping tomorrow is better and I get back to functional all day. Hopefully in the next day or so I’ll have some spunk back in me so I can feel up to really living and working again!! 🙂
I’ve don’t more reading on the Premier HCL and HCL Activator to remind myself why it was so helpful before. I couldn’t sustain it because it was taking like 15-20 pills at each meal!! Too many pills and too much money!! So, I’m in search of a daily routine of supplements and oils that will bring me optimal health in a doable way. So, the high recommend dose (not treating Lyme) is 4 HCL and 2 HCL Activators with each meal. That is a more reasonable amount that maybe I could handle taking for a few years. That would cost around $75 a month. And then if I also do the Adren-All everyday too that adds about $50. So that ends up being $125 a month.
This month I spent $139 on the Plexus Trio and I am sure it is probably doing good things for me but I don’t think it is going to really bring me real relief. So, I’m thinking maybe I was brought down this path to refocus on the things I know help me but I don’t stick to because of cost or inconvenience. So, if I pick a doable level then maybe I’ll get it done each month. The HCL stuff really sucks to do but it really did help me I just couldn’t afford to keep taking it at a high level. Maybe I can afford a lower level and deal with that number of pills. Praying about this and waiting to get paid so I can place an order.
– Wednesday, September 16, 2015 8:14 AM
If I waited until I felt better before I did something I’m not sure I would get anything accomplished… however, feeling better than I do right now would definitely make it easier. If today wasn’t the first day of fall bible study I’m not sure I would even get dressed. :-/ Gonna rest for just a few minutes before I get dressed. Oh how I wish the pain would stop it is making my eyes leak today.
– Wednesday, September 16, 2015 9:07 AM
30 minute power nap turn on some jamming music got clothes on I can do this I can do this! Shaking all over on the inside pain and exhaustion but my hair is up mascara is on I can make this look good I’m gonna be OK I May not last long….
It’s days like this that I want to scream from the mountain tops how horrible I feel and lay down just curl up in a ball and no one bother me but knowing that horrible depressing part no one wants to actually feel no one wants to know the pain that I’m in that I don’t even want to know it. I don’t know I am out and about today. I should be in bed instead of pushing through but I want to be here but then again I don’t not today I’m going to try to make it happen I think I may have to go home soon I want to do is cry.
Another part of this is that I may need to be able to put on a happy face and “show up” but going home to my office to get something done seems impossible right now because I can barely stay upright and I don’t feel like I can think clearly enough to get anything done.
Oh this frustrating secret life I live…
– Wednesday, September 16, 2015 5:07 PM
Well I made it through the study and then crashed out this afternoon. My Adren-all arrived so I’m hoping tomorrow will be better than today! It is easier to deal with the pain when I’m not so exhausted!!
– Wednesday, September 16, 2015 5:09 PM
Okay I think I need a monthly budget plan for my supplements I need. I have always just bought as I can and ran out here and there and continued the best I can. But to get well I need consistency to keep battling away!
Adren-All (2-2x a day) – $50
4 HCL (4-3x a day) 2 Activator (2-3x a day) – $75
Vascuzyme (3-morning and night) -$50
Iodoral (50mg a day) – $54
Dong Quai (4 a day) – $10
So that total is $239 a month if I do it right :-/
This is why I don’t write out the numbers… It stresses me out and seems excessive!! 🙁 These don’t include the other supplements and oils I need. These are just the ones I need to order on Amazon.
I still need these supplements:
Vitality Supplements – $79.50
Lemon Oil – $10
Detoxification Oil Blend -$24.50
Metabolic Blend -$34.50
Protective Oil Blend -$24.50
Probiotic -$34.50 ($20)
Digestive Enzymes -$37.50 ($20)
Digestive Blend – $34.50
Cellular Complex Essential oil blend: -$55
That total is $311 and these totals are before tax. :-/ so this is close to $600 a month for the minimum that I need to do.
I really want to get the craving control mix but it is $59.50! Because I need more help with cravings and eating junk.
– Thursday, September 17, 2015 7:35 AM
I need fairies! Lots of fairies to do my laundry and dishes and cooking and cleaning… And I need an assistant to cover my ministry communications work! This is a bad week and today I’m emotionally exhausted from the pain. Today I wish I had no responsibilities, no one who is counting on me. It is just too much! I’m starting to get really behind again! :-/ I really hate this! (Shhh lay low don’t tell people you have fallen apart. ) Today I’m going to answer the emails that must be dealt with and then I’m done… I really need to recover and get back on my feet!
Last night I started my period which hasn’t been bad yet only a little achy but I realized I’m out of Dong Quai! This is what I’m talking about! Constantly running out of the vital things I need! I need a better system and more money to make sure I can stay on track! It sure it hard to stay on track to better health when nothing really stays consistent.
I sure wish I didn’t have to get dressed to take my little one to pre-school…
Even when I feel bad I can look good! I took this pic yesterday 😉
– Thursday, September 17, 2015 8:34 AM
This is why I don’t post all this stuff on facebook… it sucks! So to get a more rounded picture of my life seeing these posts and facebook give a balance. The stuff I share with the “world” on a daily basis is usually the joys in my life and only some frustrations. What I record here is more the journey of my hidden life that no one sees. It is the raw emotion that comes when I’m exhausted and in pain. I feel like I’m living in slow motion. It takes years to feel slightly better, it takes months to accomplish many things, it takes weeks just to unpack after traveling, it takes hours to do simple tasks like the laundry or dishes, some days going to the store seems like a giant task (other days it isn’t so bad)
– Thursday, September 17, 2015 9:09 AM
Oh my leaking eyes!! I made it through the morning. I got everyone off to school and the flood gates are opened. I lost it this morning in front of my hubby because I was hiding from one of my little ones. I didn’t want him to see Mommy sad. I’m emotionally exhausted from the pain and exhaustion. I’m feeling like I’m beginning to fail in so many areas. Oh Lord show me what is important today and take the rest off my plate so i can let the pressure off myself.
Sometimes I start to think I’m depressed and lazy… then I actually stop and feel the pain in my body and I realize I’m hurting which is making me sad because I’m far from lazy. I’m highly driven and motivated but I can’t get my body to go and do what is in my mind and spirit. That is devastating for me… sometimes on a daily basis! 🙁
– Thursday, September 17, 2015 2:16 PM
When you can crash out for 3 hours in the middle of the day and sleep right through lunch and need multiple alarms to wake you and you still can’t force your eyes open I think there is a serious level of exhaustion that can’t be ignored…
I did get the urgent emails addresses before I fell asleep. Now I need to get upright so I can pick my little one up from Preschool!! Oh I think I could sleep until tomorrow.
– Friday, September 18, 2015 6:46 AM
Oh ugh!! Terrible no good menstral cramps woke me up this morning!! And now the intestinal cramps are starting! Oh my goodness this is awful!!! Going to see if I can accomplish a salt flush this morning to help clear stuff out so my intestines won’t bother me so bad. I guess I didn’t get enough Dong Quai into me over this month! I must have accidentally missed too many days… And now I’m out and waiting for more. I’m using the monthly blend of essential oils hoping for a little relief there. Oh this is a terrible week! I hate when I wake up having thoughts that I hate living in this body!! I want to be thankful for my body but on week’s like this I really wish for a new and improved one!! :-/
– Friday, September 18, 2015 7:05 AM
Oh shoot me now! Somebody put me out of my misery. The horrid intestinal cramping is so so bad!!
Oh and I’m getting texts about website glitches!! :-/ Ugh! I can’t deal with that right now!! Oh this sucks!!
– Friday, September 18, 2015 4:17 PM
I finally recovered from the worst of it and was able to pull myself together enough to get to the New Store Opening for my hubby! Now I’m ready to lay down!
– Sunday, September 20, 2015 10:11 AM
I didn’t write yesterday because I didn’t want to hear the bad stuff or the complaints. Let’s just say yesterday was tough and the pain was bad. I spent the day on the couch watching tv because if I was moving or wasn’t watching I would cry from the pain. 🙁
I’m staying home from church today… Still not up for getting out or being around people. I’m sweating it out in the sauna. It has been a week and a half since I really sweat in the sauna because of being out of town and then having a bad period where I just couldn’t do it. So I’m probably really toxic which is making the pain worse. Yesterday I did my first dose of the Deseret Biological Lyme disease/babesiosis homeopathic remedy. I did something similar years ago which really helped me get symptom free. I had a friend remind me of it recently so I’m going to do that as I also start the hcl. So it will take 2 months to do that. I’m hopeful that through adding in the HCL and activator for my immune system and detox plus the homeopathic in addition to my essential oils that I can get over this hump! I do the homeopathic every 3 days so on those days I have to be careful to not use any herbs or oils or eat anything for at least 30 minutes-2 hours so it can work without causing it to become ineffective.
I’m really hopeful I can be more…
– Monday, September 21, 2015 5:38 AM
Yesterday I started the HCL and HCL Activator. By last night I was finally feeling more functional and alive again.
So I took the first Borrelia/Babesia Deseret Biologicals Homeopathic dose on Saturday and I take the second tomorrow. I’m still taking the Adren-All and Adren-avive.
This morning I’m feeling some what functional and the pain is strong but not as bad as yesterday and this past week. But I’m still concerned about my left knee because it almost never bothers me and it is hurting again this morning 🙁
Trying to sweat it out before I need to run get in the shower and get the kids off to school. Then I need to get all fancy and head over to the Grand Opening for Hobby Lobby for my husband’s big day! 🙂 So proud of him!!
– Monday, September 21, 2015 8:07 PM
C.S. Lewis said, “If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” Defnitely definitely am not home yet!
– Tuesday, September 22, 2015 5:38 AM
I woke up and actually remembered dose 2 of the Borrelia/Babesia 🙂 So I put it under my tongue for a while as I climbed into the sauna to sweat it out. Going to wait until after 7:30 before I use any essential oils or anything strong or smelly. I want to make sure this homeopathy has plenty of time to work before I add anything into the mix. 🙂
I’m exhausted because I stayed up too late last night. I sat down on the couch waiting for hubby to get home and then was too tired to get up and go to bed when he got home so I ended up watching tv. :-/
Yesterday I actually made it through the day without laying down! It was the Grand Opening for my hubby’s store so I got all fancy and went to spend the morning there taking pictures. Then I spent the day getting the pics and video loaded on my website so he could share it! So yesterday was a decent day where I was functional enough and even a little productive. 🙂
Not sure how today is going to go because I’m so exhausted from yesterday. :-/
– Tuesday, September 22, 2015 7:31 PM
I totally rocked out with helping with homework with my boys today! Multiplication and reading… Getting creative and helping them grasp what they need to know! Yay me!
– Wednesday, September 23, 2015 7:33 AM
I don’t like to complain and would really not like to record or share my experiences but not writing this down is like lying to myself. The struggle is real and it is frustrating and everyday I wake up with the hope and expectation that I will feel normal and good. I would bebop around and do the dishes and laundry and cook and clean and then be my happy chipper self as I wake my family. Then I would make a plan and buzz through my day being productive and contributing to my family and society with my work.
But instead I move in slow motion because the pain makes it too difficult to move quickly. The dishes aren’t done. The laundry isn’t changed. I was pleasant to my family but only because I don’t want to ruin their day. On the inside I’m crying because I’m trapped and can’t move and live the way I want. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I didn’t have plans and dreams for my life, family or work. If I didn’t have a vision I wouldn’t be sad that I wasn’t getting to do it. But then I know that if I didn’t have a vision or a drive to see a better future I wouldn’t have anything to live for so I would just stall out and go no where and probably succumb to this disease and die. So even though my plans and dreams and wishes for my life make me cry because I don’t get to do life the way I want they are what is keeping me going, keeping me fighting, keeping me alive!
So, I’m having a rough morning again and it is bible study day… I can do this!
– Wednesday, September 23, 2015 9:04 AM
My mission today: to gain control over my personal space! Every morning and night I see a mess and it sucks the life out of my spirit and makes me feel like I suck and clutters my brain so I can’t think clearly. The mess is a weight upon me that I can’t shake. I must have my personal space clear… It is an outward reflection of how I feel on the inside. 🙁 So I plan to get it under control so that every morning I wake up I am clear headed and not falling over stuff in the floor. I can’t help anyone or be productive if I’m personally not ok. I have to anchor myself again.
– Wednesday, September 23, 2015 7:35 PM
I did it! I got half of my room clean! I wanted to finish but I ran out of time and energy. That part is frustrating but I’m thankful for the progress I made! I was so exhausted I had to lay down at 5:30p before dinner and sleep while dinner was cooking in the oven. I just couldn’t make it until dinner and getting the kids ready for bed.
– Thursday, September 24, 2015 5:40 AM
I REALLY need 8 hours of sleep at night but I can’t seem to get to sleep before 10p because it takes me time to wind down and have alone time after the kids get to sleep. 10p-5a is only 7 hours. But getting up by 5 is necessary so I have time to get in the sauna before my day starts. Otherwise I can’t get in until 7:30a and I don’t like to leave my little one out by herself during that time because I usually have to get out multiple time to help her with something. And I don’t want to do it later in the day after I’m already dressed for the day.
So if I can’t be asleep before 10p then to get my 8 hours in I need to take a nap each day for an hour. :-/ That is inconvenient and I feel like it makes it harder to fall asleep at night. But if I don’t sleep enough my brain can’t think clearly and I can literally feel my heart stressing. So, I just need to work it into my schedule some how. Sleep at night or during the day! Sleep must be a priority! 9 hours is better but I must get at least 8.
Ugh! Maybe I should change my sauna time… Maybe I should sleep 10p-6a so I get 8 hours. Then I can do the hot tub when I first wake up and do some stretching because my body is struggling a lot in the morning lately. Then maybe I’ll feel more rested and have less pain so I can get more done and be in a happier mood for everyone in the morning. Then the sauna will also have time to be really hot so I can sweat faster and do more detoxing plus I will have been in the hot tub earlier so my core temp will already be up so I don’t have to worry about being cold either.
Then I sauna from 7:30-8am then I shower and get ready 8-8:30a and then I can get my little one ready too and be ready for the day. I don’t like it this way because it isn’t as peaceful in the sauna having a little one outside of it. But writing it all out I think it is what is best for my body and in turn best for my mind, spirit and best for my family because if I’m my best me then I can be better for them. If I’m taken care of then they will be better taken care of.
This way if I need 9 hours of sleep then I can still take a nap but I will be getting the foundational 8 hours each night. I can do this!
So in bed by 9:30 so I can be asleep by 10p and then up at 6 in the hot tub. Dressed and ready by 6:30am so I can wake everyone and get going for the day and then 7:30 bus and then into the sauna for me. 8 am shower, 8:30a get my little one ready and the dishes and laundry done and ready to leave the house before 9am.
This will work!
Another bonus to this is that it will be much easier to climb the stairs to get to the sauna if I have already been in the hot tub and been moving around awhile. Right now it is extremely hard to climb the stairs when I first wake up because of the pain and muscle weakness that comes with it.
– Friday, September 25, 2015 7:41 AM
So I got distracted last night and didn’t get in bed until after 10 so I didn’t fall asleep until 11. I am sure glad that I had already decided to change my wake up time to 6am. I still only got 7 hours but at least it wasn’t 6!
I did dose 3 of the Borrelia/Babesia this morning.
I finally finished my bedroom yesterday and my head is clearer! I feel like I am working with a clean canvas now!
Everyday I wish I felt good…But the battle continues… everyday I come to grips that this may be my life for the rest of my life here on earth… but everyday I also decide to not settle for this! I will fight until the day I die for a better life!
– Saturday, September 26, 2015 6:53 PM
Wow! Today ended up really full! We got the house cleaned up and then I did a massage while the kids played with the family that came over. It went well and I helped stop the bad sciatic pain he was experiencing. I also did fine even though Saturday is normally my rest day.
Then I took the kids to a Pump it up birthday party. I decided that I didn’t want to be bored so I wasn’t going to sit on the bench and stare off or play on my phone. I wanted to enjoy my children and the time with them even though all I really felt like doing was laying down. So I watched them and helped them climb and hit baseballs. I also played a game of air hockey! Super fun! I love playing that!! Then my littlest one asked me to climb up and go down the big slide with her. I knew it would be tough because just climbing stairs is hard but with all my arm and leg strength I was able to get to the top! And then the slide down was super fast and I laughed the whole way!! So hilarious!! I ended up climbing and sliding many many times! It was hard and painful but worth all the little smiles and my own belly laughs! I actually had fun! 🙂
Now… I just hope I don’t pay for it too bad tomorrow.
– Sunday, September 27, 2015 9:03 AM
Struggling this morning! I could spend the day in bed. Pain is bad plus icky flulike. I stayed in bed as long as possible and now I’m sweating it out in the sauna. Hoping I can pull it together to go to church for second hour. Hubby had a class to go to today so I got volunteered to take his volunteer helper spot with the kids at church.
I can do this!
Oh how the spirit is willing but the body is weak.
– Monday, September 28, 2015 8:14 AM
I was thinking the other day that if I wasn’t sick we would have an extra $600 or more a month to enjoy life with. But instead we struggle to pay for groceries. Then I thought maybe I should just stop treating… but then I know my body would shut down and I would eventually die because of the pain and organs being affected. So I keep fighting and I keep sacrificing just to stay alive and functional. Most days I can deal… but last night I saw a post that my very best friends who live 4 hours from me went to a concert to celebrate a birthday. I’m sad. I’m sad that I wasn’t included. I’m sure it is because I don’t live nearby… but if I were healthy my body could handle traveling and I would have the money to travel, pay for a ticket and enjoy a night out with friends. But instead I’m stuck in this broken body in this broken situation and trapped. I can’t live and do the things I would love to because of my limitations and the consequences if were to. I’m still trying to recover from my travels a couple of weeks ago. Ugh! I hate being sad because of my circumstances!
Focus. Focus. Focus. Focus on my blessings. Focus on what I do have! Don’t focus on the pain and misery in my life!!
I can do this! I’m going to do my best to have a great day despite the pain and almost passing out in my sauna this morning. :-/
However, I must say that it is wrong that I have spent years and years and years suffering in pain and missing out on so much that I wanted in my life!!
Oh how I REALLY hate being “the sick girl”…. which is why I don’t share this stuff with people and why I don’t talk about it. It is depressing and a joy stealer! So… off to face my day and pretend I’m living the life I always dreamed of! 😉
– Wednesday, September 30, 2015 6:25 AM
Oh herx!!! Oh cuss!!! I don’t need this! Too much going on! I have to go get a new tire this morning from the flat I had last night and go to bible study. Plus meet up with a friend this afternoon.
Living a normal life when nothing about my body is normal, is just crazy! Oh what am I doing??
I committed to taking my two cub scouts camping (plus my preschooler) on Friday night… without my hubby! Oh I hope I survive!! I’m sacrificing for them because I want them to have the experience even though their Daddy has to work. I just hope it doesn’t hurt my body too bad. Oh this dilemma of life I have. Do I choose to go out and life even though it feels impossible and hurts or do I stay home in bed? I choose living even if it crazy hard and I’m holding back tears from pain!
Oh and the pain… Someone sent me a message about pain meds and managing the pain. For years I looked for meds to manage the pain but they didn’t help. I had a few that made me so drunk I didn’t care about the pain and then I had others that would reduce the body pain but cause massive stomach or head pain. So I gave up! Also, I realized that the pain was also my barometer to tell me how sick I am. If I turn that off I could push myself until my body shuts down and I die. So, for now I deal with the pain and on days that I’m herxing I take Tylenol because it reduces the icky flulike symptoms and bring the pain from an 8/9 to a 6/7. Any improvement is appreciated.
Ugh! Oh today is bad and the sauna is wearing me out. I wanna call in sick! But there is no one to call… This is my life…..
– Wednesday, September 30, 2015 1:37 PM
I ordered more plexus… I can’t tell a difference that it is helping but I had another stranger tell me to keep going and give it a chance. So I guess I will see next month. Maybe the combo of the essential oils, the HCL and Activator, the Homeopathic Borrelia/Babesia remedy and the plexus will combine into a great healing for me! I’m pretty sure the homeopathy is causing the herxing… So that is a good sign but a terrible experience!!
– Wednesday, September 30, 2015 9:35 PM
Seriously?!? Why so much pain tonight?!? Oh this is awful! I really don’t need this!! Please Lord take this horrid pain away! Oh am I toxic? Herxing? What is causing this??
“Joy is the echo of God’s Love in your life!” There may be pain in my body and tears in my eyes but there is joy in my heart! I will not let the enemy steal my joy! I share so you don’t feel alone in your journey to health. I share so you know that you are loved by our Heavenly Father. I share so your heart can be full of joy no matter what! We are not home yet! Hang on tight to joy and share it with the world!
Live the Life You Want to Live!