– Saturday, October 4, 2014
Started eating Coconut Oil atleast 3 TBSP
And oil pulling twice
– Sunday, October 5, 2014
8 Tbsp coconut oil
Oil pulling twice
– Monday, October 6, 2014
8 Tbsp coconut oil
Oil pulling twice
Have more energy less pain 6
– Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Coconut oil 3 Tbsp
Oil pulling twice
Pain 7 (traveled in car all day)
– Friday, October 10, 2014
Took my first dose of the Oils one drop each
I felt yucky and flu like and exhausted
– Saturday, October 11, 2014
My right knee popped when I was rolling over in bed! That is amazing because it is usually too swollen to do that! I’m hoping that means it is improving and the inflammation is lessening.
I did the Terrafit workout and used the trampoline so I could do all the bouncing.
Still doing coconut oil 3-6 Tbsp a day and oil pulling 1-2 times a day
– Sunday, October 12, 2014
Ouch my right knee really hurts today. It doesn’t hurt like it normally does. It actually feels like the swelling is less but that it was overworked yesterday when I exercised. It really hurts to walk. I’ve used Ginger, lemongrass, aromatouch on it to help it heal. In the middle of the night I used deep blue. I slept awful last night because of the pain in my knee, hips and shoulders.
Took the 4 oils one drop each. Only felt slightly yucky so that is good.
– Monday, October 13, 2014
Today is a better day. I got some work done and made a good to do list and actually got a lot done. The pain isn’t too bad. Probably a 6. I did a Terrafit again using the trampoline and even added some 2 lb weights! That was exciting. I’m hoping I don’t feel too bad tomorrow. If tomorrow isn’t too bad then I may try 2 doses of the oils.
– Friday, October 17, 2014
Adjusting to the Pain… but never getting over it. Even though the most of the last 10-12 years I have dealt with some level of pain from debilitating to annoying, Everyday when I wake up I still expect to get out of bed and go through my day without pain. And everyday I wish the pain were gone. I’ve adjusted to the pain in how I move and use my body but I will never become accustomed to the pain and be able to shut it out completely.
– Monday, October 20, 2014
It is a rough morning. I took two doses yesterday of the one drop oils – Oregano, Clove, Thyme, Cassia.
So I’m sweating it out in my infrared sauna, taking my Zendocrine Oil and Putting it on the bottom of my feet, plus a tablespoon of activated charcoal today.
Hoping to feel good enough to work today instead spaced out from the pain and flulike symptoms. I need to focus and be efficient and productive but right now all I want to do is curl up in bed and not move.
I’m continuing with the coconut oil three times a day and oil pulling atleast once. Over the weekend I didn’t get it all in because it was so busy but I’m back on track now.
– Friday, October 24, 2014
I got brave yesterday and did 3 (one drop) doses and today isn’t too bad. I’ve upped my detox regimen… I think the reason Monday was so bad was because over the weekend I had no time to get in the sauna so my toxin load had built up to high. Pushing onward! Still doing every other day. Hoping to move to every day for 14 days starting Nov. 1 then break for the rest of the month and I plan to switch to once a day on the bottom of my feet and diffuse it too. Until dec. 1
Using Zendocrine oil capsules and on the bottom of my feet
Taking 1 Tbsp activated charcoal at night.
Epsom salt today with aromatouch, Zendocrine, and Rosemary.
Got my monthly massage today… Realized I haven’t been doing my self massage regularly so today was tough. Planning on doing more each day and going back in two weeks to try and get some of my trouble areas back under control.
– Sunday, October 26, 2014
Another tough night and rough morning. I didn’t get a chance to get in my infrared sauna yesterday and I did my 3 one drop doses yesterday. So I’m in pain and flulike and have muscle weakness. I definitely know why in the past I didn’t stick with any regimen because having a bad day that is completely out of my control is awful. But having a bad day because I purposely treated myself seems like torturing myself so I put it off. I don’t want to live through it and I don’t want to have to do everything it takes to detox my body. Spending a ton of time in the sauna isn’t exactly where I want to spend my day!
Some days it doesn’t phase me but other days it does. It is frustrating not knowing… and so I usually put it off because “tomorrow I need to feel decent” everyday but in the long run that doesn’t help… I want to be well next year not in the same place or worse!
– Tuesday, October 28, 2014
yesterday I did three doses and today the flulike symptoms aren’t as bad as last time but I still feel pretty rough with pain and today it is accompanied with extra muscle weakness which is annoying and inconvenient… So I’m planning on taking the next 3 days off and I’m going to focus on detoxing. Then Nov 1st start the 14 days in a row regimen. So pray I can handle it! Getting prepped to really kill these buggers!!
I’m also crazy tired today all I want to do is sleep and if I lay down I go right to sleep.
– Wednesday, October 29, 2014
On really bad days (that happen for no reason) I choose not to share… I choose not to talk about how bad it is… I lay low, I avoid people I don’t reach out to people, I do my best to pretend it isn’t so bad. I do my best not to dwell on the terrible misery. I don’t want to bring others down and I don’t want to concern them with my pain when they can’t fix it or make things better. And I don’t want to dwell on it either because I’m doing my best to get through each day already. Having a bad days means I smile through tears and listen to happy music and do my best to not yell at my kids because of the pain. Keeping my mouth shut keeps me from saying negative things because I know those negative things will not help me. I must stay positive on the bad days so even just saying or texting someone about the bad day makes it more real and horrible.
But today is a “bad day”. I’m in pain from fingers to toes and everything in between. I can barely walk or lift my arms. It is exhausting to be in this much pain. I just want to curl up in bed and not move for the rest of the day.
When it gets to be this bad I have a hard time hiding the limping or the flinching in pain. I’m drowning in dirty laundry and can’t really push through and pretend I’m fine today. I think I may have to stay home… Usually I push through, I get in the hot tub and sauna and shower and pull myself together enough I can keep going. But today my “push through button” seems to be broken. I’m too exhausted to keep going through the pain.
So, I do my best to not speak of it, to not cry, to not focus on the negative… Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
I will say that it is days like today where I spend the day on the couch and in bed where walking and lifting my arms is super hard that I wonder if I will really ever be well…
It makes me so sad that my life is so hard and I can’t be the person I want to be. Spending the day on the couch and letting my kids watch too much tv or too many video games is not what I want. Or snapping at them because I’m in pain. They have no idea I’m in pain and so they have no idea why I get angry sometimes. They know my body doesn’t work right but they don’t know how much it hurts because I don’t want to worry them or upset them. So I do my best to be the fun and effective mom I can be. I just so want to be well! But when the days are worse I wonder if I’m getting worse or if I’m ever going to get well!!
– Thursday, October 30, 2014
Today is a bit better than yesterday. The pain is more a 7 than 8 and the muscle weakness is less. Wishing I could take it easy and sleep today but I have a ton to do. Lots of work to get done and I must get laundry done because the dirty laundry is overflowing!
Onward and upward! Gonna win this fight for my life and still take care of my family somehow!
I don’t want to move. It is so hard and so painful and so exhausting! I want to lay here and do nothing… Maybe watch tv and escape into a fantasy land. Everything is everywhere and I tripping over stuff when I walk which makes me want to scream because it hurts me even more to walk.
If I lay here really still then the pain is just a dull ache and my mental energy makes me feel like I can accomplish anything. But then I move and I’m reminded why the house is a mess and I’m not on top of work like I want to be. When I’m not moving sometimes I think that I’m lazy… but when I move I realize I’m sick. Do I lay here and do nothing? Do I sob and wish it all away? Do I push through the pain and smile through the tears that want to burst through my eyes? I choose to smile and focus on my blessings and fight my way through this life!
– Friday, October 31, 2014
Wow! What a relief! I’m finally feeling more like my functional self! My pain level overall is about 6… I have some body parts worse and some better.
So, now today hopefully the fatigue won’t be too bad and I can pick myself up and get caught up on the work I couldn’t get done the last three days. I am a determined worker who hates to let people down so I push through to get things done on time and as efficient as possible. I never want to be viewed as “the sick girl” who is undependable. So, I either get it done or I make sure I don’t commit to it. I have a lot on my plate right now as I run a few different businesses. We are in an immense amount of debt because of my sickness both from loss of income and from big medical bills either from Doctors and from all the natural therapies that help me stay functioning and will hopefully one day heal me!
Tomorrow I start the 14 day regimen with the Cassia, Oregano, Thyme and clove. My hope is that I will be able to handle one drop of each three times a day but I am going to start out at twice a day and see how my body handles it. Praying I don’t have any days like the last week! I still have a family to care for and my businesses to run and grow.
I’m hopeful overall healing is on its way sooner rather than later!!
Rock on! I’m going to beat this!!
Sooooo thankful for a much better day! I made it through today without a nap and got to the grocery store and did a few things to get back on track for work. And got to celebrate Halloween with my adorable sweet children!! They were so cute dressed up and I even pulled off getting dressed up too and went with them trick or treating. So thankful for a better day with some normalcy! Looking forward to a life with more days even better than today!
“Joy is the echo of God’s Love in your life!” There may be pain in my body and tears in my eyes but there is joy in my heart! I will not let the enemy steal my joy! I share so you don’t feel alone in your journey to health. I share so you know that you are loved by our Heavenly Father. I share so your heart can be full of joy no matter what! We are not home yet! Hang on tight to joy and share it with the world!
Live the Life You Want to Live!