– Tuesday, July 7, 2015 9:04 AM
So I went to IL for a week and had a busy working vacation. We did 3 classes teaching others about essential oils and had lots of people come! It was great to help so many people! 🙂
I didn’t start this month’s 14 day protocol until today because I was away from my sauna and I didn’t want to cause myself any added issues.
Yesterday I started using the Bentonite Clay. I did 1.5 tsp today I’m doing 1 Tablespoon. I didn’t feel super bad so I realized that taking it at night is bad because I’m asleep and not detoxing which is why it hurt me so bad last time. If I do it first thing in the morning then I have all day to drink water and go to the bathroom plus sit in my sauna. Much better plan!
Today I’m going to regroup with myself and work out a plan of action again. I haven’t used my planner in weeks because it is summer with lots of distractions. I don’t have to be as detailed as I am during the school year but I definitely need to keep an eye on my hopes and dreams and business plans!
Onward and upward!
– Sunday, July 12, 2015 3:28 PM
I’m fighting hopelessness…. I’m so tired of this fight and tired of the roller coaster. I just want to feel good! I’m getting by but I want more! Sometimes I wonder why I just can’t get well… then I read about others struggling like me… it really sucks! There seems to be no end to the suffering. Most of the time I find contentment in my life but not today. I think maybe I’m just feeling bad and so I’m sad. It sucks when I’m doing better and better then I plateau and then out of no where I get a new symptom! I can’t bend my toes on my left foot now… that started a couple of weeks ago. I don’t want to talk about it. This pisses me off and hurts like hell!
I hate when I have a day when I feel grief. Intense deep sadness for what I have lost and continue to miss out on because of this disease. Today I embrace it so tomorrow will be full of light. These are the things I don’t want to share or talk about. It is sad and awful and doesn’t make people happy. Let’s pretend my life isn’t really like this.
– Sunday, July 19, 2015 6:43 AM
I have to say that the battle seems to never end! Yes I’m so much better than I have been in the past! I can walk, I can ride a bike (even though I can’t bend my right knee all the way and I can only put my heel on the pedal), I can swim again, I can do massages (limited number), I can function and work some.
But I want less pain! I want to live more fully! I want to be able to move faster instead of having the pain slow me down.
I haven’t written much lately because it just feels the same. And I need a break from writing and talking about the battle. I’m focusing on what I do have and trying to keep moving forward despite how I feel. Keep raising my children, keep supporting my ministry, keep helping others find health.
I have been working on finding a new regimen with my essential oils because I have hit a plateau and I want to keep moving forward. I don’t want to take a break for a couple of weeks each month because I feel this doesn’t help me gain ground. And I don’t want to keep doing the same thing over and over because it doesn’t feel productive. So, I have 5 different blends that I am going to rotate each day. And I think I will do them Mon-Friday and then take a break on the weekend. I want something that will hit it from all directions and support my body in lots of ways. Then I will use extra detoxifying oils on the weekend.
Also, I did my first Salt Water Flush yesterday. It was really effective. I wanted to do an enema once a week or once a month and it is just too much of an ordeal to get it done, so I don’t do it. The Salt Water Flush is easier and even more effective because it does the entire digestive track! Also, reading about and remembering the healing properties of salt water I think it will be a wonderful thing to help bring healing to my entire digestive system. Actually killing off the bad stuff, flushing it out and then soothing the lining to heal itself. Good stuff!! So my plan is to do it once a week on Saturday and if I can do it more to start out I will. 😉
I also started drinking the bentonite clay each day too and I can tell it is pulling out bad stuff too. And I think it is something I can actually do each day. 😉
I can do this! I can do this! I can keep going!
Last week My Lyme Disease story written by Liz Mitchell was released and it was intense to read my story and have it out in the world.
Today I’m telling a short condensed version in Sunday school and I just hope it goes well and speaks to people. I hope someday it gets easier to share my story with others. It is so hard to tell people about the misery because it makes people sad.
– Tuesday, July 28, 2015 8:20 AM
I am having a great time on vacation! We arrived at the beach Sunday night and I spent most of the day yesterday in the ocean. It was amazing!!! The ocean makes me feel so much better! I almost feel normal!! Then I have been so blessed that the condo I happen to be in has a temper pedic mattress! I was worried sleeping would be awful and it is actually better than at home! The pain isn’t waking me up all night! God loves me! What a nice surprise!!
I’m sore this morning from playing in the ocean but I should be. The pain I normally have isn’t any worse.
“Joy is the echo of God’s Love in your life!” There may be pain in my body and tears in my eyes but there is joy in my heart! I will not let the enemy steal my joy! I share so you don’t feel alone in your journey to health. I share so you know that you are loved by our Heavenly Father. I share so your heart can be full of joy no matter what! We are not home yet! Hang on tight to joy and share it with the world!
Live the Life You Want to Live!